I Wish !

That night, I was all alone.
‎I ran into the darkest room I could find
‎And locked myself in, so tight!
‎I sat beside the window
‎with tears rolling down my eyes.
‎I looked across the street
‎through the window
‎with millions of things inside my mind.
‎
‎l've done wrong.
‎A plenty of them indeed.
‎I have been through the worst
‎and that's enough, I think!
‎But for what I've done
‎I don't deserve to be even alive
‎'cause there's no forgiveness
‎for those who let down their parents
‎ a thousand times!

And what about the wrong
that I have done to the people all around. But yes! I've been punished
And I have learnt my lessons, so well.
So, why shall I regret now?
when I should never!

I have got dreams now!
I have got things to chase!
plans to follow,
people to live for.
Then, why can't I still get out of the fear?
Why is it still Haunting me everywhere
and every time?
Why is it despair that is all I see
When I close my eyes to dream about things that I love?

Every day I wake up
With my head so heavy
With aims to accomplish
And I go to bed
With this heart so heavy
with regrets and aggression.

I'm still trapped in these
And I find no way to move out
Even though I pretend that I've moved on!

I want everything to change.
I want everything to be in the right place.
I want to forget everything,
All at once!
'cause it has been too much for
One to bear anymore!
I wish everything changes.

I wish!